14 November 2011

Late Night Pondering

Sometimes, I just want more out of life.

But, it often seems that when I figure this out, I have nothing more to give in order to make that happen.

I'm so tired...okay, not just because it's 11pm. I would love some time to reassess what my life is, who I am, and where I'm going. I feel very much like I'm on autopilot, which is not something I relish. My self-reflections are limited and lame these days. Actually, the only thing I personally reflect upon are my health issues as I try to get that all sorted out before the end of the year and a new deductible.

Even though there is just a handful of weeks left of school...truthfully, sometimes I wonder if I'll make it to the end. It's not just the projects, the papers, the research, the brain-tired. It is so much more than that.

And I am so, so tired.

2 comments:

Alisa said...

you can do it! we can do it!a

Leslie said...

Know we are praying for you and love you. May you find moments of stillness to continue cultivating a the life God has for you.