On a roll

Perhaps I'm on an upswing right now. Let's hope so.

Evidence of such:

Today I cleaned my house, I picked up my sewing project that had been on a two to three month hold, walked five miles, bought a loaf pan, and have banana bread in the oven. Shortly, I plan to continue with the sewing project, hopefully finishing up the major portion (if not the entire top) of the quilt tonight.

Oh, and I also killed three spiders today. That's always a great feeling.

Maybe I'm more like Emily than I thought. Maybe I have to have a project to work on or I feel directionless and lost. Maybe I do find my identity in how much or what I can create. I simply have never had the chance to find that out.

I'm glad I have this time to myself - living on my own, doing my own, individual things - to figure who I am apart from academics, grades, studies, etc. I was a studying machine, and being that person or that thing, is not fun. It was never fun. It was life. And not a great one at that.

Thank GOD there is more to Life than what I had seen by the age of 23. Thank God I have this time to sort it all out. To search for meaning in other places, to focus on relationships rather than the next test or assignment, to collect myself into who I am in preparation for the next step in my journey.

Thank God for that.