Disappointment and Confusion

People amaze me. Not in the "wow, that's incredibly awesome" way, but more "why would you do that" sort of way.

I've just been through a particularly difficult week because of one seemingly small situation. I keep playing scenarios over in my head, trying to figure out where I went wrong or if I did what I've been accused of doing. My conclusion is that I did nothing wrong and yet, why do I still feel defeated?

I'm so lucky to have Kyle around. I think I may have lost my sanity last week had it not been for him. Lord knows I desperately needed support.

Even though I fully believe that sometime later in life this particular situation will prove to have been a useful learning experience for me, that cannot change the fact that I'm shocked at the lengths people will go to to prove themselves correct, to "win". Every year I am more aware that keeping score in life is counterproductive. Nobody wins when we keep track. Everybody loses.

Last week, everybody lost. And it doesn't feel good.